just a thought

I was just thinking....I'm really happy that I got divorced.

I'm happy I remarried someone who gets me. Someone who I know I can be my true self with. I don't have to hide who I am or what I like, or change my point of view to suite him. He never asks or expects me to be anything other than what and who I am.

He accepts my faults and my weaknesses instead of pretending they don't exist.

Every now and then my ex husband will comment on a mutual friends facebook status and I realize how big of a fucking idiot he is. And I shake my head and wonder why the hell I ever married him or ever thought it would work. I look at myself back then and it's scary. I don't see anything in my old self that exists in the me I am today. Perhaps that's a part of growing up and moving on with your life. Either way, despite all the hardships I really feel like I'm in a better place in my life.

It's nice knowing that I won't ever have to change myself again. Knowing that I can just be me and that'll be enough. It's also nice actually being compelled to want to make things work with someone. It took me a long time to realize I just didn't care about him, not even remotely in the way I care about Mike. The ex probably feels the same way about me and that's ok too.

sometimes it's just not enough to tell my husband I love him and appreciate him. sometimes I just need to tell someone else. sometimes I just need to outwardly express my gratitude for finding someone who really compliments my life instead of hindering it.